“Like a mill pond, not a breath of wind.”
Everything has been so flat these days. No problems - friends or boys. Theres the occasional fight with mom but everything is well.
Calm.
I never felt so relax and at ease with my mind and my hate/love relationship with my soul. I dont think of those bad stuff as much. Its not an itch anymore. I learned how to look away and not look backward. I have a wonderful family. I also have my wonderful friends. I’ve met some wonderful people at fordham. everybody is so geunine…and positive. i never been in an environment where i did not feel suffocated. its so calm and yet so oddly weird. A good weird?
I have amazing professors and a likewise amazing neighborhood to look forward to when i leave to grab a bite to eat or explore. I dont know how to describe this feeling.
i’m glad i did not leave newyorkcity. theres so much to explore and learn. Theres so many different talents and art waiting to be unearthed. Newyorkcity is so…refreshing. i dont think i could ever leave it. Great people, great food, and equally great places to leave yourmark, newyorkcity is everything. walking around columbus circle at night is (the) perfect thing to do - just strolling around with a friend or with a significant other. its like the perfect friendly meeting or date. new yorkcity is my home and come to think of it, i dont need a guy to make me happy. yeah sure, if he comes along, hooray. But im in a perfectly perfect relationship with newyorkcity, and that is something i will never give up.
