Today we started talking about relationships. what is essentially “lost” in a relationship? What about freedom? and independence? What if you can’t “tame” somebody’s heart? Some might answer: Simple, you just do not start a relationship. But what if somebody is constantly conflicted with giving up his or her freedom and also debating between a deep relationship?
Are the “confinements” worth it? Yeah, with somebody you love, anything is possible. You are not necessarily giving up your independence, just establish something with your significant other. But skip all those niceties for a quick second.
Is it really satisfying to find somebody that loves that same wave of freedom too? Yeah, sure. Uh, no. My friend stated along these lines, “If you guys are in a really independent relationship, then how do you guys know if you guys are truly dedicated? He won’t know what you are doing half the time and you won’t know what he is doing half the time.” Is giving one’s freedom; a freedom, mind you, that you have known for all your life, really worth it? Do you not miss the chase? Do you not miss the thrill? Yeah the trust! You must have trust with one another to keep the relationship together. With “the one,” anything is goddamn possible.
Well, if that is the case, I have not met “the one,” or anybody close to that in any nature. Zip. zilch. Do I feel lonely at times? Sure, I do. But do I mind as much? No, not really. Yeah, he looks hot. He too. Oh, that guy over there. But at the end of the day, they don’t matter. I like not knowing and learning to love myself. Learning to love myself and pursing my dreams are whats certain. Love or anything relationship related is not certain. Deal with the certainty first I guess. I know i love my sister. I know I love ecleen. I know i love food. I know I love books. Hm. This great journey called life would not be interesting without any uncertainties. For now, I’ll just do me and cultivate this pesky seed called happiness.
been thinking for a while. I have nothing to lose so its now or never.
after finals of course and hopefully, the earliest would be by february.
hehe that song is nice :)