Sailorknots.

my mom forgot that graduation was actually this friday and not tomorrow but she came home with a single yellow rose and a mischievous grin and said, “congratulations.”

:D!

for a summer fling.

i think i found him

AND 

he has nice eyebrows!

BONUS BONUS BONUS BONUS BONUS!!!!!!

I really do not know what to say.

I have just learned that I am engaged already.

credits to ecleen :)

how things turned out. 

It is funny how, now, I can do nothing but smile and chuckle. Or maybe I will sneak in a laugh periodically. But I usually chuckle about the has beens, was beens, and well now…the present.

I dont find it particularly annoying when people ask why I spend such a long time standing infront a large span of water with a penny in my hand. 

“What takes you so long?”

I dont find it particularly annoying when people ask why I bother waiting for 11:11 every single evening. 

“It’s complete bullshit. Why do you bother?”

Complete bullshit.

I repeat that phrase in my head alot of times these past months. Complete bullshit.

If its complete bullshit, why do I bother wishing so hard every single time?

Always wishing that wish every single time. Maybe I am just hanging on to that little sliver of hope. 

Hope is driving me crazy. Hope isnt even a tangible substance. Hope is all just a fabricated mess that one holds onto to make everything less harder to bear. Hope isnt even a feeling! An emotion. Hope is something like air. What if! What if! What if! What if everything was just in vain? That is a what if. A major what if. Just hold on to hope a little bit longer! It will carry through! No, hope is just driving me plain nuts in the cherrios. I hate hope. I do not want hope. I want hope to disappear. 

Yet I still hope.

Just plain old hope.

Hope and I. I and hope. Just hope hope hope hope. 

If i repeat hope alot of times, it wont sound like a word anymore. My wish is partially visible now. It is funny how in order for my wish to come true, I will have to be alone. 

Alone with hope that is.