my mom forgot that graduation was actually this friday and not tomorrow but she came home with a single yellow rose and a mischievous grin and said, “congratulations.”
for a summer fling.
i think i found him
he has nice eyebrows!
BONUS BONUS BONUS BONUS BONUS!!!!!!
I really do not know what to say.
I have just learned that I am engaged already.
credits to ecleen :)
how things turned out.
It is funny how, now, I can do nothing but smile and chuckle. Or maybe I will sneak in a laugh periodically. But I usually chuckle about the has beens, was beens, and well now…the present.
I dont find it particularly annoying when people ask why I spend such a long time standing infront a large span of water with a penny in my hand.
“What takes you so long?”
I dont find it particularly annoying when people ask why I bother waiting for 11:11 every single evening.
“It’s complete bullshit. Why do you bother?”
I repeat that phrase in my head alot of times these past months. Complete bullshit.
If its complete bullshit, why do I bother wishing so hard every single time?
Always wishing that wish every single time. Maybe I am just hanging on to that little sliver of hope.
Hope is driving me crazy. Hope isnt even a tangible substance. Hope is all just a fabricated mess that one holds onto to make everything less harder to bear. Hope isnt even a feeling! An emotion. Hope is something like air. What if! What if! What if! What if everything was just in vain? That is a what if. A major what if. Just hold on to hope a little bit longer! It will carry through! No, hope is just driving me plain nuts in the cherrios. I hate hope. I do not want hope. I want hope to disappear.
Yet I still hope.
Just plain old hope.
Hope and I. I and hope. Just hope hope hope hope.
If i repeat hope alot of times, it wont sound like a word anymore. My wish is partially visible now. It is funny how in order for my wish to come true, I will have to be alone.
Alone with hope that is.